August 14, 2011

Opening up to the possibilities of my life.....

Hello to all of you.  My first post is about a transformation that occurred for me last year. I have been reading about all of the creative ghosts in my new online E-Course Flying Lessons hosted by none other than Kelly Rae Roberts. Many of these creators are haunted everyday by the artist within that aches to express itself. 

It so beautiful isn’t it? the place we always go to that seems frightening but exhilarating at the same time. When I first found Kelly Rae's art I was in an independent bookstore where I live in San Antonio, Texas. As I looked into the women's eyes of the painting (the same one on her book Taking Flight) a chill came over me. She had found me. I could no longer hide. I turned away in fear. Behind the bookshelves I peered out to seek her, this time not so afraid but relieved. She knew my story. She knew my deepest desires and ambitions and fears. She told me to let go and I would be free. I left her there that day. Before I left the bookstore I held her in my hands and promised that I would let go of my fears. I promised to no longer hide behind a false self. i promised to give the creative voice inside of me her chance to speak. I quietly exited and drove home in silence.




The transformation that occurred for me after that was extraordinary. I emptied a bedroom in my house and made it my art studio. I painted whatever, mainly on canvas but the floor got some and so did the walls. some how (and i still don't know how to this day) i found myself teaching acrylics I had been painting in a studio downtown. i was in a zone, i was daring and more confident so I began searching for creative/artistic opportunities and I found one. Really though I think it found me. I painted and painted and I loved every minute. I did that for about 8 months and I decided that i wanted to focus on my art and create a style for myself some way I just don't now what it will be yet.

I have to tell you all that I kept seeing her (Kelly's Take Flight painting) every so often. Here and there in my city and in different cities I traveled to within that year. One day on a stroll at some local shops I saw her again but this time she came home with me. She hangs proudly at the highest part of the wall in my art studio. She is always whispering to me. "You can" "don't be afraid" "keep going" "YES!" "let your heart sing"  Her whispers become loud vibrations in my head and make my heart pound faster. Sometimes when i look into her shimmering eyes i can see myself glow. it seems now that my whole life has been about that moment. the moment that i returned to myself.  I only want to keep that alive always.

how can i put words together to describe me? i can't. i'm a jumbled mess most of the time. full of emotion and passion and compassion and love. everything spinning around in my head and heart. i love the moon and reading and painting. i love the sound of children's laughter and the smell of my parent’s house. i love theatre and costumes and museums. I love to travel and meet new people and eat new food. i love to play my violin and i live to write about all of this.

i thank everyone in my new class for being here and sharing with me your experiences. I don't know why I decided to take this class but I am glad I did. I look forward to learning from all of the artists in my class! love and happiness to my creative ghosts.

p.s. and by the way. a couple of Mondays ago the art gallery director of the bookstore (where I first found my inspiration, Kelly’s beautiful painting) contacted me. One of my paintings now hangs in the art gallery there. tears of joy my ghosts tears of utter joy!



PEACE, LOVE AND PAINTBRUSHES!

16 comments:

Lori said...

Hello fellow flyer...your journey to who you are is absolutely beautiful. Continue to soar!

Katherine said...

What a great first post! Really looking forward to seeing you paintings.

Can I make a wee suggestion? Try to always include at least one picture in each blog post. It'll keep us arty crafty types happy :)

Brenda Figueroa said...

Hello sweet girl! I like your post very much! You are so honest an open about your story it remind me of my own story. I got lay off when I was four months pregnant (this happen two years ago) and the first thing I did was purchase Taking Flight by Kelly Rae Roberts, that book cause the same revolution in my life you explain here! I am touch, thank you so much for sharing. Look forward to seeing your art too!

Suzanne and Marrianna said...

Excellent first post. You go, girl!

Sofia Dabalsa said...

Thank you ladies! I am trying to figure out how to reply to comments. Pictures coming soon! Thank you!

Angela DiGiovanni said...

Great first post, and what a BEAUTIFUL theme you have chosen!

Try to find the option for commenters to comment with their Name/URL, rather than making them use a profile on any of the blogging sites. My website is self hosted and my Google account is old and outdated.

Enabling the comments with Name/URL will entice those of us with custom domains to comment more :-)

Whispers and Wishes said...

lovely first post... welcome to the world of blogging... hope you continue to spread your wings and fly! You are welcome to visit me at http://www.whispersandwishes.blogspot.com

Rose Duncan, RoseHeartNSoul said...

Beautiful post! Wow!

emily said...

really and truly love the watercolor background on your blog! is that one of your paintings? xo

rmack said...

What an amazing story!!! And now your art hangs in the same place as where you met her.....I love that. Please post some of your art. I would love to see it!

Leonarda said...

Thank you for sharing your story Sofia! Isn't inspiration wonderful? Especially the different ways in which Kelly Rae has inspired us all, it's just so beautiful. Imagine what the world would be like if we all stepped up....that's what we're doing. I can't wait to see what's going to happen next! See you up in the skies!

Leonarda said...

....and thank you so much for coming by Leonarda and for your uplifting comments!

Sofia Dabalsa said...

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU

MY HEART IS OVERFLOWING WITH JOY FROM EACH OF YOUR COMMENTS.

WHAT A RIDE!

Zulma said...

I so identify with your post!! Thank you so much for sharing it...it's so great to hear that someone was right where I am too!

Lisa said...

It was SO great to meet you at CANA Gallery today! I LOVE your blog (and your artwork, too!), and just like you, Kelly Rae's writings and art pieces are such an inspiration to me. Her work hangs in my studio, too!

Sofia Dabalsa said...

Lisa,

thank you for your kind words. I look forward to seeing you again soon. Thank you for sharing your work with me!